And yet another sleepless night...

how will it be possible to sleep my lord...to rest...

I see my spiritual master...I see his ways...I read his words...his actions

I see and read of so many other pure souls...

their lives...their ways...their devotion...their surrender....their compassion...their love

and I can go on about their humility...their goodness...and so much more...

and then I look at me...

Oh my lord you know my heart to the very depth...you know all my desires...

and you are so mighty...the all powerful...pure love...how can I resist to beg...

let me pure in my heart my lord...please...

let me forget and not act upon all the dirt that has stuck onto me in this life...

let me only want whatever is divine and pure...

to always show love and compassion...to be surrender...

let me search for how to serve and help others...

for how to forget...myself...

my lord I feel my souls sadness for not having reached its purity...its natural way..

I feel it crying when seeing the ones who are a manifestation of you greatness...while it has still not...

how I wish my lord...to be pure in my heart...to belong to you...to surrender to my divine master, the one you chose...I desire for nothing more...

You are the all mighty so I beg your mercy...please my lord...